Still Thinking

I'm trying to take advantage of a newfound enthusiasm for working. I've decided I'm going to try to attain a certain level of combat bonus and so I need to work. Not a crazy amount, but a fairly large amount. Thank goodness I've got TV to keep me company. Currently, I'm watching the Omaha event of the World Series of Poker. And of course, there's the internets.

Sigh. It doesn't help that I've gotten invited to so many events lately. Paintball, friends' gigs, 2 weddings, 2 baby showers, a music festival, etc. Just thinking about it makes me... exhausted.

The rough times I referred to earlier have resolved themselves for the most part. A mental breakdown, a plea bargain and a possible breast tumor later, and nothing's great, but it is better. (I should clarify that these things did not all happen to the same person.)

My response to these issues? I bought a 360 elite. Yeah, I went for the electronics. I'm such a dork. I just bought the 60gb ps3, but now I've also got the 120gb 360. And I bought all these games. Which I can't play. Because I'm working so much. It's a vicious cycle. And I've been buying a lot of makeup too, which I've now justified in my head because I've found someone who's willing to take all the items that are the wrong color for me.

Me is a basket case. Me knows. Time for ice cream.

Looks like I have a pretty good chance of making the cruise. It seems like our trial will only be for one week total, so I'm obviously very excited about this news. To help solidify my chances, I'm going to think positively by doing crunches and push-ups to prepare for a bathing suit, and I will ask my mom to pray for me (I like giving her little jobs like that).

Oh yeah, hoarder personality/work depression totally took over today. I ordered a crapload of games today, but at least none of them were very expensive. I really hope this nonsense ends soon. People are talking about adding 4 more depositions to my workload. 4!!!

While I love writing, thinking and talking about my IT boy, I must move on to other things. I will avoid talking about negative things for a moment. Instead, I will let you in on a not-so-secret secret. I am participating in the NaNoWriMo this year. That's National Novel Writing Month for those of you who are not in the know. Basically, I am attempting to write a 50,000 word novel by the end of November. I have never tried doing something like this before, and to be honest, I'm not sure that I'll actually be able to do it because well, I'm traveling a lot this month.

BUT, even if I don't make it, I think it will be an awesome exercise in human willpower. I know at some point, I will write a novel, and I'm a huge believer that you can't get good at something until you practice. Or at least try.

Look at the blogging as an example. Before a few months ago, I was horrible at keeping up with my LJ (and my blogger). But look at me now. Now I regularly update you on the inanities of my life, without any real expectation that you will read it or care, but I do it anyway. Because it's now just something I do.

I'm not saying novel writing will end up the same way. But I feel like the principle applies. I have also taken up knitting again, since it's cold out and I have scarves I owe to people.

Anyhow, there it is. Novel writing. Me. Please don't say a word to anyone, except for maybe me. Because I already know. Thanks.

It's 1:29pm and I am just a waste of space. I did get to see the pre-bf last night though and that was nice. It had been a week and 3 days! We were both really tired though, so it ended up being just a cozy evening laying on the couch. Tonight will be more high energy I think.

That is, if I can keep my eyes open. I just ate a fabulous sandwich and have the other half sitting on my desk. But I think I'm going to Gramercy Tavern tonight too so I'm a little on the fence about whether I should eat the other half. But it's turkey, brie and honey mustard. Ack! The choices I'm faced with on a daily basis.

After work today, I'm picking up the new Tegan and Sara CD in addition to the Hot Fuzz DVD. Can't wait. Maybe I should go now...

UPDATE: I ate the other half. You knew I would.

That's all that's in New York today - rain and fog. Love it, absolutely love it.

So, Harry Potter rocked. And now book 7 is in my office. Do you think it's possible to read HP and do document review at the same time? I may try it. I may hurt myself trying it. It's worth it, no?

Siren Festival was pretty cool. Lots and lots of hipsters though. And I don't mind saying that if they do things that put themselves in danger and end up getting hurt, I could care less. I mean, really, when do we stop giving them excuses for their own stupidity? On top of it all, their lack of boundaries really annoys me. I'm all for free love and whatever, but do it on your own time and stop PUSHING me! My friend told me about an article that describes how this new generation has a totally different sense of privacy because of myspace and texting. I find it disturbing to say the least. The clash between me and youth is getting worse and worse, and I'M NOT EVEN OLD!

Back to the festival. I really couldn't tell what MIA was all about. Too many hipsters, no view of the stage, etc. But the New York Dolls rocked. I had a great time and it seemed like most of the crowd did too.

Yesterday was nice just because I did a bunch of errands and managed to hang out with some friends for dinner. Maybe my one friend got a little trashed whereas I sobered up by the time we walked to the corner, but still. A good time for all.

day 4 of very little sleep. and all because of this son of a bitch thing called humidity. actually, last night i was sleeping with full-on a/c but my new pre-bf is a loud sleeper. and i am a very light sleeper. not a good combo at the moment.

and now it's time to move on to things not having to do with how freaking exhausted i am...

saw ratatouille tonight. it is so UNBELIEVABLY AWESOME. the entire audience started clapping when the credits started rolling. when's the last time you remember that happening? it's been a while for me. i laughed so hard during that movie. i just can't stop talking about it. man, i totally should have invested in pixar.

then went to eat some lovely fresh sushi down in the w. vill. at yama. very nice, but the service sucked ass. can't always win in this city.

and i fixed my wireless router today. i can't believe i've lived without it for the past 3 months. well, it's back on baby, and it explains my late night posting.

and it's off to bed for this chickarina.

i have been embarking upon a new journey lately. i am enjoying it but right now, i'm tired. i also wish i had more time. i should be doing some work right now but instead, i'll watch tv, pass out, and try to get up early. although i know i won't get up as early as i'd like. because of the snooze button.

so what is my new journey? well, it involves changing my life from the inside. i have been going to parties where i don't know anyone. i made friends through craigslist. i call or email the new people i've met at the parties where i don't know anyone and hope for the best. the myspace friends list is growing. and i have to say, it's all working. i feel my life is more fulfilled, exciting, and happier.

work still sucks though. i found out today that not only do i have to do the annual training program again, but this time, THIS TIME, there will also be workshops. ugh.

on the boys front, things are looking up. i have a few guys i'm interested in - just waiting to see if they will return the interest. of course, not all things in that area can be going smoothly - an annoying guy from the past texted me out of the blue on friday night. but i managed to save my phone from sudden death and just ignored the text.

tonight, i saw red doors. it was a little slow but i liked it overall. and it definitely made me start thinking about my own life. i feel like i'm currently going through a similar phase of realization. i just hope my own story turns out as well as the stories of the various characters in the film.

ok, ok, ok. i heard ya. i need to post. fine.

it's not like i haven't thought about posting. or made lists in my head of things to post. i've just been so busy and overwhelmed, i seriously thought about checking myself into a loony bin for a little while.

after that little insight, now, how to go about writing a recap of the last 2 months? with a total disregard of organization of course!

- i am very excited about all the shows i'm going to see over the next month or so. considering my work consists of me and my partner-in-crime, the irish nag, trying to find the life jackets on our very own titanic, i have decided that the least i can do is make sure i'm out there having fun. stellastarr* and mobius band tomorrow. big phony (www.myspace.com/bigphony) show on 4/4 (very excited about that because i was evited as part of an elite AA crowd). sia (her song was featured on the series finale of Six Feet Under) on 4/17. mike doughty on 4/22. and finally, jaime lidell on 4/25. now, while ms. LI/jamaica is going to be accompanying me to most of the shows, y'all are totally welcome to come too. being independent artists, none of the tickets are over $20. plus, i'll be there. that's worth a cool million right there. what a bargain!

- knicks game on 4/7. they're playing the pacers. i'm taking someone i find intriguing, if not a bit frustrating. we'll see how that goes. everytime i see this person, i ask them one more question. pretty soon, i may have the mystery of our particular relationship figured out. by pretty soon, i'm hoping by summer.

- just finished reviewing my dad's will, trust, advance health care directive, and durable power of attorney. needless to say, i was not only confused by most of the legalities that are unique to this area of law, but i am also a bit traumatized.

- during one of my trips back to cali, i ended up watching a korean drama with my mom and brother, while splitting a 12 pack.

- after M left ny for london, it was pretty clear that i was a lead contender for the title, "group lush." now that A is leaving for tokyo, it's official. i don't really know how it happened. i blame genetics.

- when telling my mom about someone i know who is a bit emotionally detached. her response? "do you think it's genetic?"

- i moved out of the conference room of my firm and back into my own office. i missed it. of course, i took all the paper with me. all i need is one stray spark and this place goes up like a torch. hopefully i won't be inside it at the time. if i do, i'll use the water from my hello kitty water dispenser to save my life. i really do own a hello kitty water dispenser. it's super pink.

- my big marital termination was stamped and filed on 2/14/06. the irony nearly made me die from laughter.

- i have redone my highlights and am currently addicted to artec hair products. my hair is like a mood ring. Y can recount the color chart and their meanings for you. no one at work has said anything about it yet. i dare them to.

- tv seemed to fare well without me. i am slowly catching up. my geeky shows just finished their seasons. i mourned their temporary loss already. i am now in the midst of catching up with my trashy shows. btw, who won flava of love?

- i lost dismally in an oscar pool and am about to lose a march madness pool. betting has never been and never will be kind to me. unless it's for free items. there, i have a bit of a reputation.

i finished the second DVD of my firefly series DVDs last night. they're really really good! and funny. i wasn't expecting so much funniness.

so i was at macys again yesterday, trying to buy a nice bathroom rug while i had my little discount card. but they didn't have the right color. and now i'm worried, what if no one has the right color? sigh... it's not even like i want a design for chrissakes, just a goddamn solid color.

but i was able to make a successful trip to the korean market after my failed attempt at buying home goods. when you fail in that regard, the obvious answer is to resort to buying food. you can never go wrong there. so, i finally bought a bag of rice (this is crucial as none of the grocery stores in my swanky UES neighborhood carries asian rice) and i made rice last night! this is the first time i've made rice since i moved into this apt. (a little over a year ago). and i also bought 5 different kinds of ramen, some radish kimchi and spicy pickles. for dessert, i picked up some frozen red bean buns and mochi. i had quite the feast last night. and i was happy.

ok, i'm a nerd. yes. i am reading harry potter. but no. i don't sport some fake english accent. and no, i'm not attracted in particular to any of the pubescent teens that are playing them in the movies (unlike v).

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