must put on bikini in less than a month

i don't know what happened this past winter (hating my job, ex getting arrested, navigating a new relationship, increasing PMS symptoms), but it did make me put on about 5 pounds. which i now need to lose.

i am doing calorie counting again, this time online. plus, there's the running on the weekends. hopefully it will do some good and i won't feel so much like a walrus all the time. i should also mention that the boy is on a huge fitness kick at the moment, so i can't help but sympathize a bit. (hence, the running.) the biggest change this has instigated is that i am not drinking as much anymore. in fact, not at all for the moment. today marks day 7 of no alcohol. i am also hoping that this will eventually kick in and show itself in the form of lost blubber. we estimate that by not drinking, we probably avoid ingesting about 1500 calories over a typical weekend (friday-sunday). that's 1500 calories each. when he came up with that number, i laughed at first, and then realized it was true. nothing like reality to dampen your day.

today is beautiful. 68 degrees or something like that. and then it goes back to cloudy and rainy tomorrow. i'm very tempted to take my work "home" and sit in the park.