what to do in 2009...
Dec. 27th, 2008 12:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
adivaThe end of 2008 has been a mix of ups and downs for me.
We'll start with the ups. I have an awesome boy who loves me very much and we'll soon be moving in together. My family and I have the best relationship we've ever had and I just see it getting better as time goes on. I live in NYC and enjoy my personal life immensely - I love my apartment, I love my friends, I love my menagerie of pets.
***Warning: the downs may be a bit longer because they contain a bit of introspection.
I have to find a new job. My reviews were a sham and I was lied to and treated unfairly. I'm being set up to be laid off. I'm on a probationary period of sorts. I received 50% of the bonus I should have gotten and I'm now officially making less than the rest of my class because they gave me a piddly raise.
As a result, I think I'm done with law firms. I'm thinking of leaving law firms altogether. I know I'll have to take a serious pay cut, but I'm willing to do it if it means I might be happy and wouldn't be so ready to commit suicide every day with my letter opener.
It's completely nerve wracking for me to be thinking of doing this. It's not the typical path for lawyers that come from my law school and I'm sure some people will see me as a failure for giving up on law firms. But, I really think I could be happy. Which is a foreign concept at this point, but I'm sure it holds some value in my life, even if it has been unrecognized until now.
So what should I do? I've been thinking of lots of options - I could go back to teaching, work in some other kind of academic job, work for the government, go into consulting, etc. Right now, I seem to be up for a particularly attractive position with a business news company that has a legal branch. I would be working as a legal analyst but I'd still be making a decent salary. I really think I've got a chance, but I don't want to ignore other options that are out there for me.
It's just so stressful. I can't even tell the boy how much I can afford in rent until I secure another job, which may be after we have to find a new place. So now, rather than look for my dream apartment, I have to keep reminding myself that it's only for a year. And I have to remind myself that money isn't everything. And that I don't need to own every lip gloss that's ever been made. It's a lot of reminders, I tell you.
Anyways, I'm not looking for answers. I know all the cliches. I know this will make me stronger. I have lots of support from my family, friends, and the boy. I guess I'm just writing to clear my head. I need to know that I'm making the right move. Let me know what you think. I'd appreciate it.
We'll start with the ups. I have an awesome boy who loves me very much and we'll soon be moving in together. My family and I have the best relationship we've ever had and I just see it getting better as time goes on. I live in NYC and enjoy my personal life immensely - I love my apartment, I love my friends, I love my menagerie of pets.
***Warning: the downs may be a bit longer because they contain a bit of introspection.
I have to find a new job. My reviews were a sham and I was lied to and treated unfairly. I'm being set up to be laid off. I'm on a probationary period of sorts. I received 50% of the bonus I should have gotten and I'm now officially making less than the rest of my class because they gave me a piddly raise.
As a result, I think I'm done with law firms. I'm thinking of leaving law firms altogether. I know I'll have to take a serious pay cut, but I'm willing to do it if it means I might be happy and wouldn't be so ready to commit suicide every day with my letter opener.
It's completely nerve wracking for me to be thinking of doing this. It's not the typical path for lawyers that come from my law school and I'm sure some people will see me as a failure for giving up on law firms. But, I really think I could be happy. Which is a foreign concept at this point, but I'm sure it holds some value in my life, even if it has been unrecognized until now.
So what should I do? I've been thinking of lots of options - I could go back to teaching, work in some other kind of academic job, work for the government, go into consulting, etc. Right now, I seem to be up for a particularly attractive position with a business news company that has a legal branch. I would be working as a legal analyst but I'd still be making a decent salary. I really think I've got a chance, but I don't want to ignore other options that are out there for me.
It's just so stressful. I can't even tell the boy how much I can afford in rent until I secure another job, which may be after we have to find a new place. So now, rather than look for my dream apartment, I have to keep reminding myself that it's only for a year. And I have to remind myself that money isn't everything. And that I don't need to own every lip gloss that's ever been made. It's a lot of reminders, I tell you.
Anyways, I'm not looking for answers. I know all the cliches. I know this will make me stronger. I have lots of support from my family, friends, and the boy. I guess I'm just writing to clear my head. I need to know that I'm making the right move. Let me know what you think. I'd appreciate it.
